Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Letting it Be


And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me. Shine until tomorrow. Let it be.




I might have mentioned it somewhere on here before that this is my very favorite song. Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed about how under whelmed I am about parts of my life. I feel like I'm just having failure after failure after failure. I'm really trying to heed the advice of this song and just let it be, but I'm not being as successful as I'd like.

Remember how my word for 2014 is breathe? Yeah, I'm having a little trouble with that. I have all these goals for myself that I'm honestly too afraid to share with anyone else for fear of not reaching them. Some are serious goals and some not so much. Some I'm making progress towards and with others I'm stuck in a rut. Some have time lines that make sense, others I base around silly things: I'm going to achieve xyz by the Lilly Pulitzer Endless Summer Sale - things that make zero sense!

I think part of my problem is I'm not living my life in a way I'd always imagined I would be at this point. And the scariest part is that the life I always imagined and thought I wanted now doesn't have the same luster it once did. Now I'm trying to figure out how I actually want to live my life. Where do I want to be? What do I want to be doing? Who do I want to become? For lack of a better phrase, I need to "find myself."

Anyone else experiencing this? Do I just need to take a step back and let the pieces fall where they might? Am I just a normal 22 year old or is my life as much in shambles as I think?




2 comments:

  1. Girl, you are 22. Let it be. You don't have to have your life all figured out yet. Hell, I'm 37 and am still trying to figure things out! And then once you think you've figured it out--it changes! You have to let go of that fear and share your goals or you'll never reach them. Hang in there girl...your 20s are about learning, your 30s are for living:)

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  2. For 2014 I resolved to take risks and chances and go wherever life leads me. I think your mantra of "Let it Be" is similar to this. Ultimately, nobody knows what they're doing - I try to remind myself that :) There's a freedom in accepting that things don't have to go as planned.

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