Thursday, November 27, 2014

finding thankfulness

I have a confession, I'm having a kinda hard time feeling very thankful this Thanksgiving. The holiday season from Thanksgiving prep into Christmas is my favorite time of year, but lately I just haven't been feeling very happy. The last time I was this indifferent to the holidays was in 2005, a couple months after losing everything in Hurricane Katrina.

I think it's finally really hitting me that I'll be working every holiday this year and that means missing out on the family time that we traditionally associate with holidays. I'm about a week away from my 1 year work anniversary, by the end of this year I'll have worked Easter, July 4th, my birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, and Christmas Day, New Years Eve and New Years Day all twice. I mentioned that I won't be able to Black Friday shop with my sisters like we've done every year since 2005, and I'm also going to miss out on Christmas Eve Mass and our family tradition of eating Chinese that night. These things might seem small and silly to most, but to me they're some of my favorite activities all year. The whole reason I'm living at home still is because I genuinely really enjoy spending time with my family, but lately I haven't been doing very much of that because of our busy schedules.
You know that saying "can't see the trees for the forrest", that's something I'm falling into lately. I'm really trying to make an effort to remember today to remember the little things I have to be thankful for.

I'm thankful that I have a family I want to spend the holidays with; it's so sad when I see people at work who have nobody to spend these special days with
I'm thankful that I have a warm bed and cozy PJs to look forward to when I come home after work, and I'm especially thankful that I don't have to worry about how I'm going to make my rent each month
I'm thankful that my today doesn't mean it has to be my tomorrow; I have the skills and ability to make my life into one I'm more excited about living


1 comment:

  1. I understand to an extent how you feel... being away from my family, the holidays so far have been kind of weird and it makes me sad to say I'm sort of just ignoring them? lol. Anyway, I hope you had an awesome day. Love you!

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