Changes

It is no secret that I do not love my job. While I've had a change of heart and now realize that what I do matters, it still is not fulfilling. I came to the realization about a month ago that I have now been looking for a job for over a year. And honestly that sucks. Let's be real here, there is nothing as humbling as knowing you've gone a year with nobody wanting to take a chance on you, nobody believing in you, nobody seeing your worth. As August is coming to a quick close I'm stuck with the realization that 2015 is almost over as well. This was the year that was supposed to be all about me and living my life with me as the number one priority. I was supposed to be happy, and honestly I'm just not.

I've finally decided to change that. I briefly mentioned it last week and a couple of weeks back on twitter, but I am now writing freelance. It's actually for the company that offered me a job last month that I ultimately turned down because it didn't pay enough. It's not a ton, just a couple of posts a month on the company blog, but it is being paid to write again. One of the main reasons I don't love my job is because I don't get to write, like not even an email, and this allows me to do that. Hopefully I can use this experience to get more free lance writing positions to either add some additional income and experience until I find a full time job I'll love in a fun new city or maybe I'll be able to get enough of these that I can free lance full time.

So while this new venture doesn't totally solve my problem, it is a step in the right direction. And sometimes a step in the right direction is all you need.